Just Want to Share

That I like to push the buttons.

I cannot conform to the term "just because" (except moments when Nick and I have the tiff, then this term comes in sooo useful).

If anything else, I think it must first be logical AND (must be an AND and not a OR, there's a difference, ya know?) understood by me before I follow what was to be followed.

Wells, thats not the point here!

The point is I like the push the buttons and this is reflected in most aspects of my life. Compounded with my fiesty temper (better the term fiesty than bad temper) and the habit of saying things as it is, I naturally offend people.

HEY WAIT A MINUTE, this is not what I meant to say!

Kept digressing.

What I wanted to share is that I like to push the buttons so much that in my relationship, I said things and sometimes does (in a teasing manner just to annoy Nick but I would never, ever cheat on him) things in manners that I know it pushes the boyfriend.

And then the guilts sets in.

Like ... Now.

Not that it was any major pushing that warrants him to kick a big fuss (but now that I think about it ... perhaps there were a couple of times he should but he did not) but still, I like to push him and see how far his patience (and love, I like to think) will go.

And there were moments like now that I do feel he deserve a better "treatment" from me.

I will remind myself that tomorrow, the day after and daySsSs thereafter.

Till forever and the end. (Sorry! Can't resist!)
Heehee.

Sure come someday, I would have a perfect understandable reason or reasons why I like to push his buttons (like how he concealed certain things from me) but right now, I think I should say thanks to someone above that must have like me a lot and to remind myself, he deserve a better me.

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Halo love! Hope you are still keeping my blog url on your iphone. :)
I like you. And I hope you would reciprocate too. :)

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